if you think im confessing a murder to ease my consions you are mistaken. if you feel disgust, or wish you did, think you do, or say you are, you are lieing. i hope you are. a bug cant feel. it cant think. it doesnt know life and death. it trys to preserve itself for no purpose but to serve its hive of clones. its life had no meaning nor would it have. nor does yours. you are no different than that same bug that's broken corpse stains my walls with its filth. you are perhaps worse. you think you have a purpose. at least you wish you do. you would like to think yourself better than some, even when those you compare yourselfs to have no standing as being great or even worth time to acknowledge. your life is horrid and being that you live your life based on what you make yourself of and not who you are, you undremine everything you want yourself to be. when you define yourself by what you own "the things you own end up owning you". the truth behind those words is defening. my point is far different than that though. my point is that you are nothing. you are no more than lies constructed by yourself and others taht you try to live out to be some one you think you need to be to be happy. we are all cursed by this. i am no different than that bug. you however destroy things when that bug only progressed and improved. you fall backwards and fail at everything you face. by some one elses standereds you succeded. if you think me wrong than you are probably right. for who am i to tell you anything. ofcourse you are right. you know yourself better than any one. you improve with slight withdraws in your life but you go forward. take away everything you own everything you like related to people places or things, and who are you? you are nothing. worthless. a bug. your life would never matter. your death wouldnt even match that of a bugs. for you only go back.

to cause physical paine to yourself in order to feel better makes sense. leasions fix themselfs by releasing a chemical taht makes you feel better. for those of you who had no clue as to why you do it... now you know.